but God has led me in recent weeks to be silent. He has led me to simply talk to Him. (Rob and I continue to move forward with our home study, and will be having our home visit this month).
This process certainly is a walk of daily faith. I think what I have learned during this most recent time is that this adoption is really not at all about Rob and I. It is not about the fact that we have parented two typical children and one special needs child. It's not about sacrifices we are making or will make in the future. It is not about our character, our gifts, how we have been equipped, or even our faith. It is simply about our God.
Our God is eternal. He was, and He is, and He is to come. Eternity is really out there. And, eternity is really right here, right now. That is it--when we have given our eternity to Christ, then He desires for us to live in that eternity right now. So, that is why this is not about us.
He has asked us to give up our plans for our tomorrows and surrender to His plan for our tomorrows. He has called, and we have answered. Surrendering to Him, I find, is peacefully uncomfortable!