Remember that "obstacle list" that I made as we began this journey? Well, after Rob assured me that my list of obstacles really didn't matter to God--(that if we were really called to this then the list would not be a problem)--I actually forgot about it! Funny thing, sometimes God works faith into our lives even when we don't realize it. Well, today I was scrolling through the "notes" section on my iphone, and I came across that list of my NINE identified obstacles to our family moving forward with this adoption. And...guess what?? YES! Without me even realizing it, every single obstacle has been resolved!! (I can check off that list!) So, you know what I found myself doing? I actually made an "Obstacle List #2!" I scolded myself after I had made it; I mean why can't I just have the faith that God will provide and clear the path for the PLAN that He has ordained?? Am I really that hard headed? Then I realized that though I certainly have room to grow in the faith area, God put me together like this. It is part of who I am. I deal with demanding and stressful situations by working through them one step at a time---with a list! He is good and patient and kind and full of grace. And He is probably not even bothered by my lists.
So there you go. God is persistent to weave faith into our lives even when we are anxiously running around trying to do what only He can do. He is long-suffering with us even in our weakest, most human moments. His grace is available and it is His joy to lavish that grace upon us. And best of all...it's not up to me or my lists!
"Cease striving and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
Psalm 46:10 (NASB)