Thursday, March 8, 2012

Update and... transparency

Well, it has been quite a while--a month--since I last posted. We have been busy doing paperwork and getting our home ready for the home study (I wonder if they really open kitchen cabinets and underwear drawers to see how neat I am).  I am most likely stressing out just a little too much over the home study (ya think?), but I do want everything to be in order.


The whole home study thing feels like our lives are under a very powerful microscope. Our decisions--bad and good--are being examined. Our financial decisions, our parenting decisions, our flooring decisions (okay, I may have gone too far on that one...) our school district, choice of doctors, and on and on and on...


And then there is the money thing. I went into this whole venture clinging to Psalm 50:10 where it states that our Heavenly Father "owns the cattle on a thousand hills." He owns it all and controls it all--I am so confident in that. And yet, at this point I would honestly like to "liquidate" some of that livestock for cold. hard. cash.


I told you I was going to be transparent! Sometimes that is not so pretty, but I will always keep it real. I am not super-spiritual or always full of faith. I am just a plain old mother who doubts, fears, falls and has hard days. What I do know is this: God called Rob and I to move thus far. We have to walk this step by step.We have to continue each day to take the next step until we bring A home or He causes this journey to end in a different way.


"And He is not served by human hands, as if He needed anything, because He Himself gives all men life, and breath and everything else." Acts 17:25

So I will choose to trust in Him and His timing. I will "practice" Hebrews 12:1-2 each day. I will "throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles" (for me--fear and doubt) and I will "run with perseverance the race marked out" for me. And finally, I will "fix my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith." (this was all His idea) That's really what this adoption (and everything in life for that matter) is all about--fixing our eyes on Jesus.

12 comments:

  1. Am so happy to see little Ana getting adopted. Thank you for your post, and thank you for reminding me to leave my husband to God in these matters. God bless you. Diana Tyree

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  2. I am so excited to see Anastasia's (Ana's) family. Our family adopted another Anastasia (now Anya) and she became ours on Sept 22 2011. When we found our own Anastasia's picture, your Ana's was listed right before ours, so everytime I went to see our little girls picture, I got to see Ana with the cute little hat, but it also made me feel so guilty --- I knew she needed a family too! I have prayed and given money and am so excited that her family has finally found her. She has been waiting too long...can't wait to follow along.

    Stephanie Lynch

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    1. Stephanie, Thank you for your prayers for Anastasia and for contributing money on her behalf! God is so faithful to His children!

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  4. God bless you guys : ) can't wait to follow your journey..just LOVE Anastasia xxxx

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  5. I found your family while doing my regular Reece's Rainbow lurking ;) I love checking in to see which kids have been found by their families. What you wrote about in your bio sounded SO familiar to our scenario. It's great how the Spirit works in hearts. I had to pop over to see how the journey is going.

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  6. Yay! So glad Anastasia has found a family! We are adopting 'Whitney'. Could you email me? Tiffany@anothertexasfamily.com

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  7. I've waited to see this day since I first laid eyes on Anastasia in June of 2010! Thank you, LORD!!! And you and your family too! :) My family loves her, and her photo (the older one) adorns our family trees. Happy Day!

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    1. Tammi, Thank you for being Anastasia's "prayer Mommy" for these almost two years~! It gives me so much comfort to know you and yor family have been praying for her before we even knew her! What a blessing! Thank you and bless you!

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  8. My wife showed me this site the other night. That day I had taken some cattle to the sale. We were inspired by your comment - "And then there is the money thing. I went into this whole venture clinging to Psalm 50:10 where it states that our Heavenly Father "owns the cattle on a thousand hills." He owns it all and controls it all--I am so confident in that. And yet, at this point I would honestly like to "liquidate" some of that livestock for cold. hard. cash."

    God lead us to believe that night that the money from one of His calves out of the group of cattle was to be sent toward your adoption. So today, we are mailing the money order to Reece's Rainbow. We will be praying that your adoption goes smoothly and that Anastasia is home with you soon.

    With love, from fellow Texas brothers and sisters in Christ.

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    1. Wow--this is stunning! Thank you thank you! This has been a week where our family has encountered several challenges related to our adoption. Your donation, and the hearts with which it is given, is of great encouragement to us. God is at work on Anastasia's behalf! God bless!

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